Considering that's the only remaining post that i had wrote last year.
So much has changed. So much had happened ever since i wrote it.
Now that my typing skill has improved, perhaps i can ramble a lot in this latest post.
To review back from what i had read just now:
1. i did shed a few kilos only to gain rapidly for the first month of working (ill get to it later)
2. be reasonable with food? nahh still the same
3. do i love myself? so far i haven't done a pretty good job with that
4. i did graduate successfully and my relationship with my sv didn't stretch to non professional level. regardless, im still lucky she gave me A
5. still hopeless and my confidence is zero to none
What's new?
Well, after graduation, i did stumble into some odd jobs. i worked as a promoter again and it was an experience that i myself wouldn't want to reconsider going back again. except for some time lah. Even i myself couldn't believe that i managed to outdo myself. yeay. Somehow, i got myself into a dropship which i have never even believe i happened to be so into it for the first few months. Now i am a bit slow because i already gotten a job. my grammar sucks. xpe.
yes, people. im hired
so, today's post im gonna dedicate it entirely to the sole purpose of my half hearted misery for 1 month and half.
job.
what kind of job do i have?: copywriter
so what does a copywriter do?
i have no fuckin idea man. this word seems to stuck in my day to day vocabulary.
cliff note version; i basically run a facebook page for my company
it's a simple job; one that can be done by a 10 year old
for me, i feel like im expendable u see. maybe like one of my science-i-love-fact colleague said, it is my worth and work that differentiate me. but the thing is, i dont feel challenged enough.
what the hell am i doing here?
and now the karma has haunt me. i always whine about the job, the people and the surrounding
but now, im not even in a mood to do my job because things have been stabbing me in the back lately. maybe what i wished for isnt really swell enough for me.
my gut and intuition have never lied to me. so this time, i decided to go against it and listen to my mind instead. it got me really freaking out; I ACCEPTED the job
without even asking for offer letter
bodoh kan?
im feeling like a bird trapped in the cage and now inside my cage, i long to have my creativity mind to stretch far back throughout the universe.
and through FB, i begin to start to persuade to motivate myself to like my job
i feel like im not doing a real job and my colleagues as charming as they can ever be; i can never get along with minds that are too sharp
i need some crazy
i need some action
i need some....me
and i havent found it yet
i know she's prob thought the worst of me
and mind u, i experienced the worst.
and i survived.
i will get away from this
i want to start anew
i am 26, with a job that i half hearted agreed to it, unattached, broke, and no consideration to get married
i pray that this will change soon
amin.
